I feel like my mind is a complete blur... with so many different thoughts floating around and i can't really figure any of them out...
But something (that really has nothing at all to do with my bad week) that has been stuck in the back of my head... is Father's Day which was last Sunday.
I didn't celebrate this day, or call anyone, or buy any presents. My own dad is a great guy, he lives in Nevada with my step mom, and I care about them very much. However, I've never lived with them or really gotten to experience a life with them... so all I can really go off of is what I know.
There was another guy who was like a dad to me for many years... and it feels really hard that I didnt get the chance to say anything to him on Father's day, ore really even acknowledge him.. and that person is Walt. My mom and walt were married when I was 9 or 10 and I can honestly say that I have never seen two people so happy.. ever. They had their problems like everyone does... but for the most part it was as close to perfect as i've seen.... and for all that time he treated me just like one of his own children, and i feel very happy and blessed to say that he was such a big part of my life..
Tonight I looked up his obituary... it was pretty hard to look at and think that it has been almost six years since he passed away. I still think about him every day and feel sadness at all things my family will never get to do together again...
But i think the reason why i've had these thoughts in my head is because i dont have the chance to tell him personally how great he was... so maybe this will make that a bit better...
Anyways..
Happy Father's Day Walt! We miss you so much!
